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Mar. 19th, 2009 @ 10:32 am
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ahem.
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Jan. 22nd, 2009 @ 08:02 pm
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I have come to the conclusion that my medication makes my nose want to close shut and never re-open.
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ugh
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Jan. 9th, 2009 @ 09:28 am
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I am really stressed out about leaving tomorrow. I feel like everything is so rushed. |
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2009
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Jan. 2nd, 2009 @ 09:47 pm
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Yeah, 2009 is here already and its not starting good. My Aunt passes away last night, its been hard on me and really hard on my family. Everyone has just been a total mess, a basket care more or less. I am planning on leaving to go to Scotland next weekend for the funeral, she asked that I be one of the guys who carry her casket from the church to the cemetery, I am not sure I really want to do it. I think it will just be overly emotional and I am not sure I am ready to deal with it, I don't know how to deal with it. I am trying to not isolate myself and just stay in a normal state but my body just wants to shut down. I went to the gym today and it just took so much energy out of me being there, thinking how do I go on living a normal life right now when someone so close to me passes away. She seemed to really help hold our family together...
I don't know where I am going with any of this, I just really need to try and get my travel plans made and figure everything out, if I am even going to go over there. I know she really wanted me to be able to go over there, I just don't know if I can afford it with missing school, and the job thing, and just my financial situation in general. But I know it would mean a lot to my family if i could make it.
Other then my loss things have been looking up for me. I really think this year will be a better year for me, in a way my aunt moving on was a blessing, she was in so much pain, it is just really hard to lose someone you are so close too.
I feel like I should post something more positive- but I can't think of anything right now. People are bringing up drama causing problems, the things I can do are limited, I can't do what I want to do, work where I want to work, do school when I want to do it. I don't know anymore.
I've been looking at grad schools in Florida and trying to figure out if credits can transfer and stuff like that cause I am moving to Florida. I am planning on it for like July. I just need to get away from Michigan and I figure there are an abundant more resources for my field of study down there in like Delray/West Palm area so once I finish my school I could really use that to my advantage. I guess thats about the only positive note that comes to mind.
Hope everyone else has a good 2009.Current Mood:  depressed |
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We got a new house in lake tahoe! its pretty sweet although the inside of it is kinda ew
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So relieved.
Aug. 25th, 2008 @ 12:15 am
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SO::::
work now tells me they have a full time salary position for me in TOLEDO. wtf, I don't really want to move there. But I talked to my DM today for about an hour and they would pay all my moving plus pay my first 3 months rent and the pay, and benefits are really kinda hard to resist. I told her I would think about it. But more than likely I want to stay around Michigan for at least another year. I never say Toledo in my life plan before. She said it could be 6 months before they have a position for me in Michigan. And now I have to start working more at the Somerset store to get there numbers in order like I did the Novi store. and that was just a pain. I never intended to stay with this company long term but it seems promising so far, so we shall see. I was thinking of a job more along the banking line, which I am still applying for some jobs now don't get me wrong, its just hard to find them.
anyways, that was my little rant for the day. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. So I had to get it out of my mind and onto some paper. or at least a computer screen.
Aug. 8th, 2008 @ 04:09 pm
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Care for another Martini?
I could wet my whistle...
Brandy Sir?
Bartender I really did it this time
Broke my parole to have a good time
When I got home it was 6 AM
The door was locked so I kicked it in
She was trippin’ on the bills
I think she was high on some pills
She threw my shit out into the yard
Then she called me a bum and slapped me real hard
And in my drunken stupor
I did what I should have never done
and now I’m sittin’ here, talking to you
Drunk and on the run
I’m sittin’ at a bar on the inside
Waitin’ for my ride on the outside
She broke my heart, in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin’ car
Crashed that piece of shit an' then stepped away
And I know I’ll probably get ten years
So just give me beers till they get here
Yea I know the sun is comin’ up
And y'all are probably gettin' ready for closin’up
But im trying to drown my soul
Im tired of this life on the dirt road
Everything that I love is gone
And I’m tired of hangin on
Im sittin’ at a bar on the inside
Waitin’ for my ride on the outside
She stole my heart, in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin’ car
And crashed that piece of shit an' then stepped away
Yes it was meant to be
Romance is misery
So much for memories
And now I am headed to the penitentiary
See me on TV
The next cop series
I am a danger
I guess I should have did something about my anger
But I never learn
Real things I don’t concern
I pour kerosene on everything I love
And watch it burn
I know it’s my fault
But I wasn’t happy it was over
She threw a fit
So I crashed that piece of shit over
song:
And now I'm goin' back again
Back to the pen to see my friends
When we all file off that county van
They'll ask me where I've been
I've been at a bar on the inside
Waitin’ for my ride on the outside
She broke my heart, in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin’ car
I Crashed that piece of shit an' then stepped away
Fades out:
Laaa laaaa la laa la la laaaa laaa laaa la la la laaaa
Heyyyyyyyy
Laaa
Laaa laaaa la laa la la laaaa laaa laaa la la la laaaa
Hey you bastard
Laaaa
Laaa laaaa la laa la la laaaa laaa laaa la la la laaaa
Aug. 4th, 2008 @ 02:59 pm
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Yeah, read the subject.
My cat Dolce is in the hospital for now, it sucks. Lindsay is in TC still, that sucks,
BUT: I think I might be moving, after the house sells, or once I finish my POE in SAC, which, should be this fall I hope. I plan to be interning this fall then moving to Delray to get a new job, because well, hell, there are lots of jobs down there. Like they say, Florida's biggest import is drug addicts from Jersey. lol. But thats all just a thought. I feel the need to make a large change in my life. not like, HUGH large, but more or less real real real person job, like a career. I know I have a good job know, with awesome benefits and pay, but it has nothing to do with what I went to school for. I should have taken more programming classes and crap like that.
I DUNNO.
but, Oliver is snoring loud, and I have to be up early, so I might make like him and go to bed. I just felt like making a post so everyone knew I was alive and here.
Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 09:44 pm
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im home. call my cell.
Jul. 10th, 2008 @ 12:19 am
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Jun. 7th, 2008 @ 12:01 am
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My interview today went really well. I was called back for a second one! Sounds promising so far!
I can't seem to sleep.
May. 24th, 2008 @ 06:19 pm
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| » WHAT! |
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I GOT AN INTERVIEW!
So I have an interview wednesday with the Luxottica Retail Group, to do there area supervisor which seems pretty cool! I would be in charge of making sure a bunch of different stores keep budget and hours and visit all the different stores each day and rate them on everything. So I think it would be fun, plus the pay is pretty fuck sweet.
So that was my excitement for the day.
Only thing is they asked if I would be willing to relocate, and no expense to me, I said possibly. So we shall see.
May. 23rd, 2008 @ 03:48 pm
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| » when will it stop?! |
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Thank you for sending your resume and contact information. Although your
background is impressive, we have decided to pursue other candidates who
more closely match our needs. Your resume will be kept for future
consideration.
I see this becoming a trend. Maybe I should have just gone with the whole google job.
May. 22nd, 2008 @ 07:49 pm
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| » where did it go wrong? |
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Really, I think this year has just been a bad year for everyone. It seems all my friends, my family and everything is just falling apart. Last week things were going great. I mean really good for me at least, and my friends were getting back on track now who knows what is going on. What is happening to people?
I just want things to be normal, people to be honest and to know the truth. Everyone just needs to be honest and tell the truth, no more lies.
May. 19th, 2008 @ 08:32 pm
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Birthday!
May. 17th, 2008 @ 07:05 am
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So I am finishing up my final stupid research thing that I am doing, then I think I graduated. I found out I didn't really need a spring term so that rocked. But, now I need to move somewhere. And find a job I enjoy. I am beginning to hate Aflac. I am not a con-man. I don't like to rob people. So, I have no idea. I have been looking at jobs in St. Louis, and in Stirling, Scotland, which I think would be pretty sweet because then I could work on my Masters at the Uni there.
Or I have been looking at grad schools out in California because I am pretty confident I could get a good job out there. I just want out of this hell hole life in MI. My mom wants me to move back home with her so I could save up some money and not be putting eight thousand miles on my car a day. I just need a better direction. My life seems empty. I need something to fulfill it, like a good job. Or maybe the Navy. I have no clue. Noooo clue.
Oliver has been passed out all day today, he is such a weird dog.
I want to get my tongue pierced for some odd reason. I just think it would be fun for like a week, but I don't know how well that would aid in my job search. haha.
Okay, well I am going to go work on my research project and pay some bills and hopefully fall asleep
May. 12th, 2008 @ 09:44 pm
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They say
I need some Rogaine
To put in my hair
Work it out at the gym
To fit my underwear
Oakley makes the shades
That transform a tool
You'd hate
Ffor the kids to think
That you lost your cool
I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think
Everyone likes to dance
To a happy song
(Hey, hey)
With a catchy chorus and beat
So they can sing along
(Hey, hey)
Timbaland knows the way
To reach the top of the charts
Maybe if I work with him
I can perfect the art
I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think
No I don't care
I don't care
I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think
Totally different
May. 12th, 2008 @ 09:31 pm
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So I got a new hat. I love it.
In other news, I think Oliver has a thing for playing cards. He always finds them, opens them and tosses them about the room making a mess. WTF mate?!
its 12:00pm. I am sleeeeepy. I hate working, it used to be fun now its just pain staking and something that just needs to be done.
May. 5th, 2008 @ 11:53 am
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@ Call DTE, I haven't gotten my bill yet
@ Return library books
@ Find three more schools I am interested in
@ Research more jobs, work on cover letters
@ Go to gym
I am sure I could make the list 400 pages long but I think tomorrow I am going to take the day off for myself, just relax. Although I have been working some more with Aflac this week, I am kinda over that job. I need to find something that keeps my interesting and makes me happy.
Wow. two posts in on day. crazy.
I need to truth. Reconcile with my family. two more add ons
Apr. 30th, 2008 @ 12:27 am
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